Some early morning, mid week ponderings.
So a friend made a post about belonging. How they often feel like they don't belong, feel excluded. It made me think, I often don't feel like I belong. In part due to my personality, the way I think, the way I feel, the way I see the world, because I am very socially awkward. At places like at Headwaters/Harvest Gatherings, I will try and join groups du...ring free time, but they end up dispersing shortly after I arrive. I try sitting in open sunshiny spots just enjoying the sunshine, but no one ever comes to sit with me. At work functions, I tend to keep to myself and don't mingle, etc. At family functions I tend to do the same. Sit with a few people I know I will be able to talk to, or keep myself busy with my kids.
My friend said in their post - "when do I exclude others? when do I keep people out? when do I make other feel that they don't belong?".... I've also been trying to figure out in the last few years what energy I'm putting out that is keeping me isolated when in group settings.
I think perhaps it is something I need to sit with. It is always interesting how we feel rejected, but we often create self fulfilling situations for ourselves. We want to belong, but we don't do the things, put out the energy that is welcoming to others? I don't know. I'm not sure how to resolve this or maybe it doesn't need to be resolved and this is just how it is for me in this lifetime?
For those of you who've been with me in these types of social situations, parties, gatherings, etc., I would love to hear your thoughts on how I come across to you. Maybe it will give me some insight?
So a friend made a post about belonging. How they often feel like they don't belong, feel excluded. It made me think, I often don't feel like I belong. In part due to my personality, the way I think, the way I feel, the way I see the world, because I am very socially awkward. At places like at Headwaters/Harvest Gatherings, I will try and join groups du...ring free time, but they end up dispersing shortly after I arrive. I try sitting in open sunshiny spots just enjoying the sunshine, but no one ever comes to sit with me. At work functions, I tend to keep to myself and don't mingle, etc. At family functions I tend to do the same. Sit with a few people I know I will be able to talk to, or keep myself busy with my kids.
My friend said in their post - "when do I exclude others? when do I keep people out? when do I make other feel that they don't belong?".... I've also been trying to figure out in the last few years what energy I'm putting out that is keeping me isolated when in group settings.
I think perhaps it is something I need to sit with. It is always interesting how we feel rejected, but we often create self fulfilling situations for ourselves. We want to belong, but we don't do the things, put out the energy that is welcoming to others? I don't know. I'm not sure how to resolve this or maybe it doesn't need to be resolved and this is just how it is for me in this lifetime?
For those of you who've been with me in these types of social situations, parties, gatherings, etc., I would love to hear your thoughts on how I come across to you. Maybe it will give me some insight?
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