The spirit Grandmothers hold council deep within the body of Mother Earth to discuss the current state of our Earth. They ponder how to awaken the women who are the warriors, protectors, and daughters of Mother Earth.
(c) Leah Marie Dorion 2004
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
Thursday, October 2, 2008
Autumn musings
I have been delinquent with my posts this year as it has been a very trying year for me emotionally.
In March I decided to take a sabaticle from my Grove as I was feeling the call of my totem to go solo for some time. My totem is the elephant and I am very strong in the male aspects of this great creature and therefor often feel the pull to be alone. It was a very hard decision for me to make and took me years to finally walk away for a time. I'm still not sure if this was a permanent decision for me or if it was something that I just needed to do for this year.
In early April I received a call from my mother that an aunt & uncle had been in a head on collision and were in bad shape. Thankfully they both survived.
Then my husband and I went to France as my husband had business there and I had never been to France (or Europe for that matter) and insisted I come along. While we were there my husbands boss collapsed and died of a massive brain anurysm. Being the only one of the group who spoke French, I had to do much of the dealings with the paramedics, police, etc. My husband stayed an extra week to make sure his boses body got back to Canada ok. Once home we had the funeral to attend. His boss was also owner of the company, so the company was sold and my husband temporarily lost his job.
He is currently working for the new owners but only on contract and may be out of work again as of November.
In July one of my uncles passed. He had been very ill for a very long time. At the viewing he looked like a very different man laying there, but I appreciated the opportunity to be able to see him and say goodbye one last time.
The decision also came to be that I have to re-home my dog, whom I've had since he was 8 weeks old. He is now 8 1/2 year old. This decision was one that has not come easily to me. I have two small children, my son born 3 years ago and my daughter born 1 year ago. My dog, a Border Collie Cross has been mostly good with the kids so far, but as they get older they get more hands on with him and occasionally have hurt him, resulting in warning nips from the dog which has left small welts or bruises. My fear is that if I miss something that the nip will become a devestating bite or worse. I have found a home for him where the woman has no children and will be able to give him tons of one on one love and attention which he so needs and deserves.
I have been grieving since I made this decision and he moves to his new home this Saturday.
Two days ago, I also found out that one of my cousins step father has just been diagnosed with terminal cancer. Her biological father (my fathers brother) died when she was two.
Anyway...all this has made me extremely sad and contemplative. I've often wondered why all of these things have happened to me this year. So much death, either physical or mental/emotional separation. A lesson I must learn this year that is slowly piecing together for me. Winter is coming, a time of natural introspection....
In March I decided to take a sabaticle from my Grove as I was feeling the call of my totem to go solo for some time. My totem is the elephant and I am very strong in the male aspects of this great creature and therefor often feel the pull to be alone. It was a very hard decision for me to make and took me years to finally walk away for a time. I'm still not sure if this was a permanent decision for me or if it was something that I just needed to do for this year.
In early April I received a call from my mother that an aunt & uncle had been in a head on collision and were in bad shape. Thankfully they both survived.
Then my husband and I went to France as my husband had business there and I had never been to France (or Europe for that matter) and insisted I come along. While we were there my husbands boss collapsed and died of a massive brain anurysm. Being the only one of the group who spoke French, I had to do much of the dealings with the paramedics, police, etc. My husband stayed an extra week to make sure his boses body got back to Canada ok. Once home we had the funeral to attend. His boss was also owner of the company, so the company was sold and my husband temporarily lost his job.
He is currently working for the new owners but only on contract and may be out of work again as of November.
In July one of my uncles passed. He had been very ill for a very long time. At the viewing he looked like a very different man laying there, but I appreciated the opportunity to be able to see him and say goodbye one last time.
The decision also came to be that I have to re-home my dog, whom I've had since he was 8 weeks old. He is now 8 1/2 year old. This decision was one that has not come easily to me. I have two small children, my son born 3 years ago and my daughter born 1 year ago. My dog, a Border Collie Cross has been mostly good with the kids so far, but as they get older they get more hands on with him and occasionally have hurt him, resulting in warning nips from the dog which has left small welts or bruises. My fear is that if I miss something that the nip will become a devestating bite or worse. I have found a home for him where the woman has no children and will be able to give him tons of one on one love and attention which he so needs and deserves.
I have been grieving since I made this decision and he moves to his new home this Saturday.
Two days ago, I also found out that one of my cousins step father has just been diagnosed with terminal cancer. Her biological father (my fathers brother) died when she was two.
Anyway...all this has made me extremely sad and contemplative. I've often wondered why all of these things have happened to me this year. So much death, either physical or mental/emotional separation. A lesson I must learn this year that is slowly piecing together for me. Winter is coming, a time of natural introspection....
Friday, January 11, 2008
Akashic Records...
I saw a woman yesterday who did a treatment for me which included re-aligning some of my energies, a chakra re-alignment and also some healing work while using at least one of my spiritual guides for guidance on what needed work. The mental healing work was very interesting and needed yesterday after a very difficult beginning of the week. She was guided by a very old and bent old native man in full headdress and leather. Very kind eyes but spine bent very much by the burdens I carry with me. We worked on me learning to get rid of these burdens and why I really don't need to be carrying them.
She also spoke to me about my Akashic Records. This was the second time I have had them looked at for me and I find it facinating. I had never heard about them before the first time (approx 3 years ago) and didn't know this woman also did this. Anyway, a few of the things she was shown were very cool. (She doesn't know me very well, we'd only met once previously and in a group session so we didn't really talk at all)
She said that she was shown a sorcerer's type cloak, but all in white being drapped over my shoulders. That I was being given this cloak to wear (symbolically) at this point in my life. She also said she was shown an image of a white owl turning into a white dove over and over. That I was the white owl right now, but was heading more into a stage of being a white dove. Both wise and powerful, but one more a warrior and one more peaceful. She said I also in the past wore a huge amathyst amulet but was forced/resigned to stop wearing it due to my own reluctance to accept the gift that came with it, and/or for being prosicuted/shunned for the gift that came with it, but that I was again approaching a stage in my life that I was ready to put it on again. (I asked her if this was from a past life as I never owned anything like this in this lifetime and she said yes). She also spoke of my past as an herbalist/healer. But that I was one to put others needs before my own and ended up being prosicuted for my gift anyway and that this lifetime I was to accept the gifts but not to put others needs before my own this time. She told me that this journey, this lifetime was to be a more selfish journey. This journey was for me. Not that I would not need others, but that everything I learned and did was for me this time. I asked if I was on the right path spiritually. She said that I had already accomplished everything I needed to spiritually many many years ago and that everything since then has been a bonus/gravy. That I was already where I need to be.
She also spoke to me about my Akashic Records. This was the second time I have had them looked at for me and I find it facinating. I had never heard about them before the first time (approx 3 years ago) and didn't know this woman also did this. Anyway, a few of the things she was shown were very cool. (She doesn't know me very well, we'd only met once previously and in a group session so we didn't really talk at all)
She said that she was shown a sorcerer's type cloak, but all in white being drapped over my shoulders. That I was being given this cloak to wear (symbolically) at this point in my life. She also said she was shown an image of a white owl turning into a white dove over and over. That I was the white owl right now, but was heading more into a stage of being a white dove. Both wise and powerful, but one more a warrior and one more peaceful. She said I also in the past wore a huge amathyst amulet but was forced/resigned to stop wearing it due to my own reluctance to accept the gift that came with it, and/or for being prosicuted/shunned for the gift that came with it, but that I was again approaching a stage in my life that I was ready to put it on again. (I asked her if this was from a past life as I never owned anything like this in this lifetime and she said yes). She also spoke of my past as an herbalist/healer. But that I was one to put others needs before my own and ended up being prosicuted for my gift anyway and that this lifetime I was to accept the gifts but not to put others needs before my own this time. She told me that this journey, this lifetime was to be a more selfish journey. This journey was for me. Not that I would not need others, but that everything I learned and did was for me this time. I asked if I was on the right path spiritually. She said that I had already accomplished everything I needed to spiritually many many years ago and that everything since then has been a bonus/gravy. That I was already where I need to be.
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